when even the Devil swiped left

gave my soul to God one time

at ten my purest heart did shine.

devout I prayed so earnestly

but still no Father came for me.

i searched religions far and wide

but they all shunned me and my kind.

i dove deep in philosophy

and into spirituality.

the more i knew, the more i didn't,

i swam in questions infinite.

with open heart and mind for all

the harms became inevitable.

with every pain my world grew small

there ain't much really left at all.

a mind opened wide as the sea

and poisoned with anxiety.

i thought i'd give my everything

for peace of mind eternally

so to the Devil did I go

and offered him very my soul.

i lay myself upon his line.

my terms were fair, my goal was fine.

just calm in perpetuity,

"good deal," I thought, mistakenly.

the Devil laughed maniacally.

"nowhere, not ever, no, "said he.

i know rejection all too well,

now even from the gates of Hell.

when gods and demons wouldn't have me

my despair grew accordingly

decimating self-esteem,

what do these exiles say about me?

but then i thought a little more.

this "God" and "Devil" - they are yours.

and i may be all your taboos

but shunning says more about you.

so as these flames envelop me

the peace i sought wash over me

as finally i smile, set free

to calm in perpetuity.