capitulation

my dearest child from long ago

that from my arms fate took away

my love for you was unsurpassed

no matter what the records say

on moonlit nights in quiet mists

my cells remember everything

your vernix scent and finger grasps

the million dreams I planned for us

the one who took you loves you so

and left me drowned and heartbroken

the trust I gave so freely then

forever spoiled and poisoned

the tales she wove to shepherd you

that by design destroyed me

for you I know they must stay true

or else your world would crumble

so dearest child from long ago

my firstborn love who has my heart

you are a strong young woman now

your life and mine remain apart

I'll be the villain your life needs

the one she wove in from the start

I love you so much even still

I'll play this distant silent part

and into light I place my grief

the us that never got to be

I will uphold the webs you know

my truths can only hurt your peace

to give you breath and set you free

was all this life could give to me

it matters not what I was sold

as long as you are happy.